3rd Year Of Teenagerism

God, its amazing how happy new shoes can make you

That is, of course, until you come out of the shop.
& because you're a teenager, every single person over 25 shoots accusing looks at you.

Feeling utterly completely absolutely crap

Quick rundown of friendship events in last few months:
(im using false names in case they read & throw a total spack at me)

Anna & i got really close, and became besties which was a really great time.

Then the new school year started, and because we had our option lessons, we werent in as many of each others lessons anymore.

Another of our close mates, Daisy, was in most of Annas lessons, and gradually I got pushed out, and they made it pretty clear that now 3 was a crowd, so me & the last member of our once tight-knit foursome, Julia, got ignored by Anna & Daisy.

If we tried to talk to them, they'd just blank us or answer with 1 word monotone answeres that made it obvious we were no longer wanted.

We emailed, and tried to ask what we had done wrong so we could sort this charade out, but they ignored the emails.

With no alternatives, we just got on with it.

Then, Anna had a go at Jules for not inviting her & Daisy to town one saturday, saying that they always made it their first priority to include her, which was kinda a load of rubbish seeing as they hadnt spoken to either of us for weeks.

Meh.

Eventually, it all got sorted out (thank god!), but Ju;es & I were the ones to blame for everything, although now Anna & Daisy are joined at the hip, and kind of think themselves superior to us other 2, but at least everyones talking again!

Anywayy....

Now it seems like whatever i do i am somehow copying Daisy.

She got into certain brands of clothing, 1 of which i had been wearing for sometime, and when we both turned up wearing clothes from that brand on a non-uniform day, did i get evils or what?

Or being inferior to her.

Now she has turned her voice all posh and started dressing head-to-toe in one expensive brand of clothing. & she brought some real Uggs. I also have real Uggs, but on a day trip out shopping, i wore some boots i'd got from primark, much to her disgust, and a few comments about 'knock off clothing looking tacky' were made.

I may look tacky, but at least i dont let the clothes i wear change who i am.

So...todayy...we were in PE, and i look up to see Anna & Daisy whispering to each other then looking across at me and Jules. Mainly me. That probably makes me sound like a total paranoia but it was quite obvious who they were 'discussing'

& Now im feeling totally down, because since Daisy came along, my once closest mate & I havnt done anything together, which is kinda upsetting seeing as a few months earlier you did everything together and now she's forgotten you, i mean, i know its good to get some space, but to go from best friend to bitch for no reason is kinda harsh, dontcha think?

Anyway, Bye for now...im off to hide in my duvet & eat plenty of chocolate and watch yet another english-broadcast american TV show where every single girl is perfect with the perfect luves and perfect guys.

Reality sucks sometimes.

Okay...so...
this is my first blog, and i will be most probably very bad at it and i probably wont write very often because a)i will get bored/distracted b)i will be snowed under with coursework or c)i will be trying to sort out some factor of my complicated life.
Anyway....hope this doesnt turn into some moan drone blah being a teenagers hell blah blha kinda thing, if it does, msg me & i will delete it!
Well, i guess i should start writing the actual thing...so Bye for now x
(i told you id probably be bad at it!)